today was so long. 8am meetings are not my thing. my team met from 8am-5:30pm straight today. no break. well--5 minute ones about 3 times. it was all information that i found interesting. i felt like i was back in college though---slouching on my chair...in the same position for 2 hours.

my new hotel stations is lacking. broken arm chair, no monitor, just a heap of plastic accessories thrown together in a plastic bag sitting on the desk. how inspiring.

halloween was pretty trippy but overall lots of fun. went to 2 parties--the first was at some friend of ben's. and the second was a party sponsored by the church of mez in some warehouse in west seattle. my pink wig glowed under the blacklight--how utterly magnificent.

i'm hangin' out over at my friend Ben's place right now as he transforms himself into Neo to go out to a halloween party. He and I went shopping all day--at North Bend and then a little at Bellevue Place. I just had this urge to just go out and shop. This happens after every breakup--the need to go out and splurge and spend lots of money on myself...only to come back home and pity myself.

It's been a really really hard week. It's hard having someone that is a constant part of your daily life suddenly not want to be there anymore. someone who knows me so well...who knows when i am happy or pissed...who's been so integral in my life in seattle. and for it to happen so immediately.

i miss you so much matthew.

here's a halloween idea to have wild eyes

i'm so sad today.

god, i'm still at work. i feel like blegh. i need a break.

wow. my entries are getting further and further apart from each other. it's been one whole week since i've written anything here. but what does that matter except for all of you so curious about my mundane life?

i can't even remember last week. it flew by. i probably just worked a lot. surprise. the weekend was pretty fun--hit the 'ol fenix underground for the first time in months where this funny cover band, kryboys, was playing. sunday evening, i went to a smith recruiting event where only 2 high school students showed up. so sad--there was such a great turnout last year. anyhow, it was fun to just sit and chat with a small group of us about our lives at smith. it's odd how *any* alum from smith can just reminisce and talk for hours. i don't know if i should be scared about that. nah. i seem to also appreciate smith a lot more since i've left. i mean, look at me now--i'm involved with the club and in charge of getting together the most recent alums to have fun.

last night, a group of about twenty members of the music team went bowling over at roxbury bowl in west seattle. my team was "tania's teasers" with robert, ron, mukund and christina---and we won!!! oh yeah!! i played a ridiculously good game for me--my last game was somewhere around 168. we were the only ones in the entire alley and the staff dimmed all the lights and turned on the disco ball. [sigh] what a fun team.

what a crazy 2 days it's been. a new web dev for the music team (wahoo!!) just started and i've been trying to train her. it's overwhelming to think about how much i've learned since coming here.

another crazy day at work. i can't believe that i was able to get a certain test up and running--kudos to joe wilson. he totally saved me.

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